Well…today was…..a day. It was one of the coldest days I have seen yet this year. With cold comes hell for both my skin and asthma. It does not help that everywhere I go is on foot. But that was an elective price to pay for being so phobic and marrying someone with the same […]
The Comfort in Chaos. (Why I Can’t Believe in God)
Prayer. All throughout my life, whenever a hard time arose at least one person would mention prayer. “I’ll pray for you.” “You will be in my prayers.” “Can I pray for you?” “Maybe you should pray.” I always appreciated the first three remarks, the last remark however always had a way of leaving me frustrated. […]
When Your Armor Betrays You
When someone says armor what comes to mind? A shining metal suit? A helmet? Something clunky and bulky? As you sit there and bring forth images in your mind of what you relate with the word, you are sitting protected in the natural armor that were blessed with as a human being. Skin. It’s not […]
A Uncharacteristic Dream without an End
I woke up with a heavy heart this morning. I was alone in bed, my husband left for work earlier that morning. I was having a dream that I have to say is a vast improvement from my normal nightmares and anxiety dreams. It started with a prince, a dance and a wedding and ended […]
The Late Night Awakening
It was around 11:00 at night. Me and Zack were settling into bed. He had to go to work early the next morning, and I was trying to read him to sleep. All of a sudden I hear that little ding from my computer that announces a message. This startled me a bit because honestly, […]
Sister, Sister
I became the legal guardian of my teenage sister three years ago after our mother passed away. It was a real roller coaster. This time was full of epiphanies and lessons, as well as full of frustration. Taking in a 16 year old at age 20 gave me a strange accelerated insight. It was also […]
Before I Kick the Bucket (Bucket List)
Musical -Learn how to play the guitar -Learn how to play Piano -Learn how to play Cello -See trans siberian orchestra live -See My chemical Romance in concert See a musical on Broadway Traveling -Go to New York -See where my mother grew up (Gatlinburg, TN) -See where my father grew up (Philadelphia, PA) -Go to […]
My Experience with Hypnagogic Sleep Paralysis
I have been reading about other’s experiences with Hypnagogic Sleep Paralysis. Years ago between the ages of 14-18 I had frequent experiences with sleep paralysis. Sometimes they would be nightly for months at a time. After seeing a description of a good Halloween documentary to watch posted on the PBS Facebook page that happened to […]
Things I Think of Fondly from my Childhood
-bonfires -barbie Pink -shiny and sometimes tacky jewelry -camping -zoo visits -pajamas -eating junk food with friends -those frosting covered animal crackers. -fruits snacks -Nsync and Backstreet boys -Pink (the artist) -old school nickelodeon -making collages -thought-filled walks in the park -halloween -Tim Burton movies -Johnny Depp -all the angsty music I listened to in […]
Shadows and Mirrors
“The day the child realizes that all adults are imperfect, he becomes an adolescent; the day he forgives them, he becomes an adult; the day he forgives himself, he becomes wise.” -Alden Nolan So many of us share a common fear. So many of us wear scars from childhood and avoid mirrors. As we grow […]
The Raven at the Writing Desk 